Lol so ironic, always said I wanna give up den when in e end when he does smth nice I always say nvm la one more chance. Like procrastinating, am I using e right word?

You told me once that you'd cherish me, always.
I don't see the cherish part, neither do I see the always part.
You told me you wouldn't hurt me/make me cry again.
Why do u always do it then?
All the plasters and scotchtapes on my heart cant hold on much longer..
Are you even gonna try saving this "relationship"?
Why is it always me who wants to take one step further in this relationship?
I hear my friends saying, "he's a jerk, he obviously doesn't care a shit about you"
I keep hoping that you do.
Does it hurt you when I'm hurting?
All those excuses and sorries somehow just doesn't make the cut anymore
They just make me feel worse every step of the way
Everytime u MIA or smth I'm always e one who calls you.
Can't u make e effort and call me for once?
Show me that u at least care a little?
Instead of this awful silence.
Have u ever hurt cuz of me or rather, smth I did?
It's always me who's hurting and crying.
Do u really love me or even miss me like u always say u do?
I keep hoping but those hopes comes crashing down when shit like this happens.
Do u even care?
Is it really that fun to play with me and my heart?

P.S: My cough came back, grats to me. Coughing like no tmr now.

-May Bo-

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