This is one of those times when ms chim gets chim. Don't read if u dun wanna kill ur brain cells.
FYI: this is not a suicide note neither is it promoting suicide.

Watched e movie called "Flow" today. It was disturbing on many levels. For one it actually managed to bring across a point without having to resort to blood and gore like many other documentaries do. For another, it talks about having to fight for "human rights" for water in this case. Then u start to think about how humanity has fallen to the point where u have to pay for water, for the right to live, the right to life.

And then the question of "What does Life mean? Whats the meaning of our existence?" comes up. Some people may say that to live is to be happy.
Then, what is this "happiness" that u speak of?
Oh, happiness is when u have ur friends and family around u and u have everything that u want.
What do u "want" then?
Money, car, house, etc.
This, I'd say is a meaningless existence for the wanting of objects never end. Money is not a meaningful end at all. E.g. I go to sch so that I can get a better job. With this job, I'll be able to buy the stuff I want and I'll be happy. But u're so wrong, for this "happiness" is only short term, before u start wanting something else better, more expensive. What is the meaning of owning an iPhone, a new laptop? We define owning things as being happy, but does this happiness have any meaning? Does it takes us anywhere beyond that short-lived exhileration (how spell ah) of owning it? In fact, we start to judge someone by their appearances and what they own. Even when u say "nahh I look at someone's character before I judge." LIAR! we judge a book by its cover on 1st sight whether u wanna admit to it or not. Is this "appearance" meaningful? Because when we trust our sight, we are ASSUMING what the other person is.(elaborated on next para)

When this meaningless'ness of life sets in, we're not aware of it but we start to seek the "meaning" to our lives. We seek this in someone else, in that other partner (bf/gf/spouse)we supposedly love. What is this love if not a means to seek a meaningful life? (pun not intended. lol)And then love has been erroded too. When we meet someone new, we assume something that they are from their appearances. When we assume, we project an image from our minds into that person. Therefore, that other person is not someone else, but you. You are the one thinking that this person is such and such (assumptions) and from these assumptions u like/dislike that person. If this is how we view our loved ones, a projection of an image from ourselves, then what are we doing but loving "ourselves"? What then, is the meaning of "romantic love"?


Even the basic necessities in our lives have been erroded. This time, by the market economy. Where water once used to be free for everyone's use, corporate companies are taking over water sources and claiming it for their own " so as to provide water to everyone". What right do they have to own that water source? For it is like saying "Because I am me, I own the air around us". When they pledged to provide water for "everyone", they're doing it for profits. People now have to PAY for water. How can the poor and destitute pay for this water? It's like telling them "pay, or die. Choose." Water shouldn't have to be a CHOICE for it IS a human right. Without water we'd die. These MNCs are asking people to pay for their lives. What are they doing if not putting a monetary value to lives? What is the meaning of life when the human rights of ppl have been taken away from them?

There has been a transformation of life and the way we live it ever since the start of a capitalist economy and people are only starting to understand the ramifications of this monster which consumes everything in its path. It is inevitable. Yet, we have to come up with solutions to adapt. If not, then life has really lost its meaning.

In conclusion, I end with this song, which kinda puts into context how people judge by appearance and how "cool" u are. (psst, I like this song, but it's like applicable so I put it here lol)



-May Bo-

♥ 6:11 PM

Fucked up day zzz. Shoe spoil. Mom bought that pair of shoes from salvation army. Had to walk bak to change into slippers zzz. Got blisters. Late for class bloody hell zzz. Fucked up. Spoil my mood

-May Bo-

♥ 11:41 AM

My nose is blocked. My right ear is blocked. Wth.. What's gonna get blocked next? My throat? Then I'll die from suffocation. I can't hear properly for 3 days le zzzz.. Trying all e stupid remedies i see on e web now..

-May Bo-

♥ 10:06 AM

Cuz confidence and fabulous hair works like a charm. :)

♥ 2:48 PM

I dun think my ego needs any more inflation. I juz got told by someone with a model stick thin body that she thinks I'm sexy and pretty all in one sentence. Dunno whether to feel flattered or insulted lol.. I think I should feel insulted cuz then I can deflate my ego.. :) like seriously.

-May Bo on iPhone-

♥ 2:23 PM

"Before another loves u, u have to love urself"
But I love myself too much already.(I know u guys love me too) Why's nobody in love with me yet? (speaking of the opp sex tyvm) How's that?

-May Bo-

♥ 12:17 AM

So I had this convo with a couple of my friends. Whether divorce should be "carried out" if your spouse is having an affair.Whether divorce is necessary at all. And also, if it should be done,(if u have kids) should u divorce before or after ur kids are grown up? Taking into consideration if u divorce when they're young they'll lack the love of both parents and get emotionally hurt, but if u divorce when they're older ur subjecting them to years of unhappy marriage, unhappy parents.

Though I agree that people should divorce if one of them is being unfaithful, for if that happens, it just means that he/she doesn't love u anymore, that's why he/she's being such an asshole. I.e, there's no love left and u shud divorce. I don't know how to deal with the kids issue..

"but if u enter into that marriage, means u love each other and should try to resolve all ur probs for all probs in a r/s can be resolved."
Seriously dude, if u believed that, u wouldn't be single now. Sorry, just speaking the truth.

"people make mistakes and we should try to forgive and forget"
What kind of bullshit is this? You consider infidelity just a "mistake"? There are mistakes and then there are Mistakes with a capital M. I don't consider this a Mistake to be forgiven.

"but I don't think such a thing will happen to me" or "but I'll marry a guy/girl I love and we won't do such stuff"
Lol, yoohoo people, stop living in a dream. And anyway, I said a "IF" question, I didn't ask u guys to apply it to ur own life. Why would u wanna curse urself anyway. Don't come running to me if such stuff happens to u though. I'll sympathise with you, but I'll vote for divorce. I'm a cynic, so?

It's a dillemma though, on the kids issue. I agree that divorce is a bad solution, but it somehow has to be done if things got that bad. Oh and on the issue of being infidel, I'm refering to not just marriages but relationships too. Screw people who lust after another while u're in a relationship/marriage. You're sick and greedy. Having a perfectly good r/s or marriage is not good enough for u, u have to wish for something better. Well I can tell u that There's always someone better. U noe the "yi shan hai you yi shan gao" chinese idiom? Yea. If u don't learn to be happy with what u have, u'll never be happy.

Just for emphasis. Screw you (people who don't understand the meaning of being faithful).

Disclaimer: This blogpost is not "shooting" anyone nor am I "pointing fingers" at anyone. It's just a rant. Get over it.

-May Bo-

♥ 11:35 PM

Im tired, bored, emo.

-May Bo-

♥ 11:40 PM

If ever some obese guy wanna be ur bf
" sorry I go for quality not quantity" woohoo ultimate bitchy!!

♥ 8:57 PM

Zzz I'm totally anal about time and I hate it when ppl wake me up unnecessarily.

1. My mom talk on e stupid phone talk so loud so WTF for wad since she's not deaf. And she woke me ip from my nap. Zzzz. A note to my frens. Don't. Ever. Call or SMS. Me. When. I'm. Sleeping. I'll so freaking kill u and cook wads left of u for brunch. In curry.

2. E bus I'm on currently stinks can't ppl bathe properly or smth? Stupid stinky ppl

3. Wth is up with ppl who don't know what's e meaning of pls be punctual? Or the fact that I said very clearly I hate tardiness. Which part do u not get huh? U missing ur brain? Idiots

But I met this funny guy today. He was staring at me. So I stared back and went o.O and he blushed, lol? Anyway after that I went to e toilet to check my appearance. Thought I had fishballs stuck to my face or smth since he stared so intently. I ate fishball noodles.

I'm gonna scold my tuition kid upside down if she pisses me off today since I'm not in a good mood at all.

-May Bo-

♥ 6:21 PM

1. Random: sometimes Jay Chou sound like he's having major constipation when he's singing. Other times, I just love his lyrics..

2. You know you're smart when you can attach an actual sociological theory to why guys are jerks.LOL

Im like too tired and lazy to elaborate..Maybe another time bah huh.. Cya guys

-May Bo-

♥ 9:19 PM

Today started off fine.. Woke up at BLARDY 6am for a STUPID exam at 8.30am zzz. After that I was like totally shagged, but I still had to go for lessons.. HELLO! Zombified Ms Chim.. After that went home for a short nap before heading out to meet the girls..

Wore my STUPID 4inch heels. Here's what happened:
1. Walk walk.. How come the shoes like abit sticky.. Oh well nvm juz continue walking..

2. walk walk flop flop. O.O why got flap flap sound de

3. WTF MY SHOES THE SOLES ARE COMING OFF. *panics*

The whole bloody sole came off zz and I started walking weirdly.. Like walk, draaaag, walk, draaaaag so that the whole sole wouldn't come out. SO MALU!! I hope nobody noticed. :( Then I asked Jo and Jyan to help me buy slippers so that I can throw away my shoes.. Thanks girls, hearts u guys lots.. Totally sianned pls.

We couldn't eat Wendy's cuz it was still closed due to the flood.. Quote from Jo and Me: "Must be the soaked/soggy burgers.." Sadded. Ate Ajisen Ramen instead.. Usually, I dun like to eat at Ajisen Ramen cuz Sumin LOVES to drag me there.. She has this THING for noodles.zzz Freak. (Shuddup Sumin I noe wad u gonna say, jus shuddup.) Dammit, I need to go for shoe shopping soon, all my shoes are like falling apart.

ALmost everyone went off after dinner.. :( so left me and jo and wanwan to wander around the shopping centre like some lost sheep.. Stupid place was closing too. Went Kino, just walked in and the Announcer went "Dear Shoppers, it is 5mins until closing". I went O.O what? WE JUST WALKED IN! Den we went to meet Daphne after her work and went home.. Short but good night spent with u guys.. :D

-May Bo-

♥ 11:18 PM

Im like f***ing busy so I dont have time to blog.. Sorry guys.. But few days ago got smth funny happened. I was talking to this good online fren of mine, no u all dunno him de. Here goes:

Him: u noe huh since talking to u I think I learnt alot..
Me: is it.. Like wad?
Him: like how to be bitchy
Me: O.o example?
Him: Like saying, "I think ur eyes twinkle like stars"
Me: that one call flattery leh..
Him: No la u muz READ into the sentence. It juz means dat ur eyes small until like stars. U noe, stars are like so far away they look SUPER small. Universe so big, stars so small. Hidden meanings. :D
Me: LOL thanks ah..
him: I also never say it's u.
Me: I hate u. lol.

-May Bo-

♥ 9:17 PM