Sometimes I really hate this feeling. Other times I'm juz alright with it. The feeling where u juz wan someone to be there for you. That feeling where u just have to have a nice long chat on the phone with someone. No not a girl. Kind of missed those days where I could juz call my guy frens juz for a nice lil chat, ok slash lil, LONG chat of mre than 2 hours. (Fyi. I dun like to chat wif girls on e phone, dun ask me why) Lost contact wif most of them already. I think this feeling came also cuz I juz had a random call with a random guy just yesterday. Ok not so random since I know him but still random cuz haven't spoken to him in a long while.

Ok cut the long story short. I want a happy romance/relationship; whichever word u prefer. Haven't had a happy one in a long while. And I mean OFFline ones. Oh wait did I ever had a happy relationship? -.- thanks for screwing up my outlook on relationships. And no, I will never forgive though I'm starting to forget. Stop hoping that you'll cast off that "guilt" cuz I won't let u.

I know there are alot of great guys out dere, juz dunno why I nvr seem to like the great ones. And no I dun believe in "Transformers" (i.e. even though ur guy is badass, u'll manage to 'transform' or change his character.) doesn't work that way. Never did never will. Leopards don't change their spots.

Valentines' day will continue to suck til I find him. That guy who loves me more than I love him. V day is long over I noe, but I'm just thinking back on Vday cum CNY this year and thinking how uneventful it was. zzz.

Edit: Kinda jealous of people who have chosen not to blog or blog as often because they have found someone they can confide fully in, instead of typing onto a dumb screen and posting it online for ur frens to noe juz cuz u dont have the guts to say it out loud.

-May Bo-

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