Lately, I've been feeling that stuff are falling apart around me, and guess wad? It's all cuz of guys. Yea, note the S. Seriously, one day I might just turn lesbian ( nah joking, u noe how much I love lee dewyze =x).

Anyway, just came off looking at Jessica's blog again.. http://www.underage-girl.com/. Realised that whatever she said, I've said it too, juz not as eloquently (is dere such a word?). Time passed and I've come to terms about what happened but I can say that mine was more of self destruction rather than "emotional abuse" as was in her case. When you suddenly found the patience to keep believing in a guy who doesn't seem to change or want to change for that matter, that, in my opinion, IS the epitome of self destruction. Understand that I'm not trying to take the blame for myself, lol. Hell no.

Telling someone that you've changed actually hurts more than when you weren't willing to change. Funny how AFTER you left, people have sudden flashes of inspiration "I should change". It'd have been laughable if not for the fact that time passed, things change, people moved on.

It's actually true that your 1st relationship would be different from all your future ones, because there, you've put in your all in what you believed to be something worth holding on to; something that would last a lifetime. More often than not, reality sucks.

Quotes from her blog:

You're better off without "..."

The boy who shortens your dates because he would rather do something else with other people

The boy who always conveniently fails to pick up his phone while he's out partying at night

The boy who never keeps his promises, from the littlest to the biggest things

The boy who could look you straight in the eyes and tell a blatant lie without even blinking

The boy who never replies your sweet text messages and never calls back when he says he will

...And the boy who just never loved and appreciated you enough.

Most girls as unrealistically optimistic about their relationships or sometimes just in major self-denial, so if there happens to be a voice inside your head telling you that something is wrong, don't ignore it.

I remember crying myself to sleep wishing that things would get better, but they never did. Not until I took control of my own life and stopped letting a destructive relationship consume me.

And when you do finally take the plunge, be firm with your decision and never look back.

Nothing says weak like trying to walk away from someone but giving up halfway and ending up running right back into his waiting arms because he knew you just weren't strong enough to do it.

With each try, the next will be harder, and more distant.


Oh and of course, assholes are not worth being friends with!!! Tell the ex to go screw himself if he wants to be "friends", more like he wants make up sex or something y'know? Don't trust him.

Good for her that she stopped the whole thing by herself. Wish I did it too lol. Well, I DID try, but as usual, was too soft-hearted. I know my frens would whack me for the next sentence. I disagree with her when she said assholes are not worth being friends with. In my opinion, there's nothing wrong with having him as a friend, cuz it just shows that you've moved on.

Moving on to recent events. When you suddenly thought that he'd be the one you'll be interested in, that person just cuts you off with a sentence, and everything's gone. How nice. But I don't think he realised it as yet. Oh well, at least it stopped before stuff got serious.

-May Bo-

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